Fear and Love

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” – Frank Herbert, DuneI first read Dune when I was 13 years old. It was about a year after my parent’s divorce and I was very afraid. My whole life had been turned upside down. My parent’s marriage, the… Read More »

Child of Divorce

My parents divorced when I was 12. In 1983 that was becoming an increasingly common experience, but that didn’t make it any less devastating for me. All order in my life was disrupted. Schedules changed. New people came in and out. Heroes became villains.My mom left my dad for another woman. She had never been happy in her marriage with my father. They had only married because she was pregnant with me and she spent eleven long years trying to make a mistake work. Finally she’d had enough. Becky came into her life and offered her her something my father… Read More »

Memorial Day

Hey there.How was your week? Did you enjoy your Memorial Day Weekend? Did it even register as a holiday? I have to admit that with this new lifestyle workdays and weekends and holidays all kind of blend in together in this slurry of work and non-work.My oldest daughter, Madeline, came home for the weekend with her husband, Leonard, and two dogs, the grand-puppies. I really enjoy having the kids home. It makes me nostalgic for when they were younger, but I really enjoy seeing what adults they have become. That comes with its own form of anxiety as now more… Read More »

Be Good

Hey there,How was your week? Mine seemed to get busier. Various interests competed for my time and that lent itself to some longer days and having to let a few things go.I’m continuing to edit video for my online course. That’s actually starting to go pretty well. I’ve learned a few tricks on how to fix certain issues in post. (I’m pretty sure that’s an industry term.) Things like how to zoom in on a wider angled shot to give better detail and how to speed up specific clips so as to show what I’m doing but not unnecessarily lengthen… Read More »

Log Cabins and the Revival of a Podcast

Hey there,Another week successfully navigated. I’m moving forward on my projects. I’m excited about the future and even enthusiastic about the work. Although, I will admit to a certain dread over sitting here at the laptop for hours editing the video I’ve already shot. It’s not the editing itself that is so daunting as the extended time spent staring at my own image and the self judgment that ensues. I’ve chosen to view this as an exercise in getting over myself.When I look at the issue squarely, it comes down to this. I actually have a pretty high opinion of… Read More »

What comes next?

Hey there,A couple of weeks ago I decided to restart this bog. And I think I got off to a pretty good start.But then it came time to write the second post and I got all clammed up. Everything I wrote seemed forced and I realized that it was because I was trying to preach.Not that I’m all high and mighty or that I know, well, anything. It’s just that if you’re going to take the time to read this blog then it seems my obligation to provide something worth reading. Whatever I put here needs to imbue some kind… Read More »

What do we do now?

Hello.It’s been a while hasn’t it?How are you?I know things have been crazy lately. It’s partly due to all of this craziness that I decided to ramp this blog back up again.We’re all a little freaked out right now.And why wouldn’t we be? Something we can’t see, hear, touch, or feel is running willy-nilly through our world. A new virus is wreaking havoc and no one really knows what to do about it. The experts can’t agree on treatment or mitigation. Policy is decided by people patently unqualified to do so. Many of us are worried about the future of… Read More »

New Programming for 2020

If you haven’t noticed by now, I am a man who is comfortable with paradox. My children love to tease me citing images of me holding a tiny kitten or playing tea with a toddler. I’m no stranger to being called a “gentle giant.”When it comes to programming I love consistency. I can contentedly follow a program from months on end, pursuing the same lifts and the same exercises, seeking stimulus in a deep dive into form and technique and increasing intensity as my ability improves.Until it’s time to change.And yep, it’s time to change. At the end of our… Read More »

Baby, It’s Cold Outside

If you’ve been following my previous blog posts, you know I’ve been working on curing myself of exercise induced mouth breathing. Taking a cue from author Patrick McKeown, and his book Oxygen Advantage, I’ve been actively training to keep my trap shut and nose breath while I train.As I noted in a previous post, one of the immediate benefits of this style of training is its inherent self regulation. This week the weather has been less than conducive for running. It’s either been pouring rain or too damned cold. The sun was finally shining today, but cold temperatures and my sinuses… Read More »

Nasal Wog

In case you were wondering, I’m still running. Well, sort of. I’m not sure if many would recognize what I’m doing as “running” but it’s the beginning of what will become running – eventually.Three times a week I walk from the gym down to the east end of the Rotary Trail. I run/walk for fifteen minutes then turn around and run/walk back. My one rule is that I have to breathe through my nose the entire time.It’s harder than it sounds, at least for me. I generally manage to cover two miles in those 30 minutes. I run until I… Read More »

Into the Woods

Now that I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m a mouth breather. I’ve begun to implement a plan to correct and improve upon my situation. In a previous post, I mentioned that I was running again. The problem is that my running, for now, requires mouth breathing, which is over breathing which lowers CO2 tolerance which encourages moth breathing…I tell you, these vicious cycles are everywhere. It’s downright…vicious…Enter the hike. I can walk at a pace that allows me to keep my mouth shut over the course of the entire walk (hiking sounds tougher, though, doesn’t it?). Overtime… Read More »

Mouth Breather

In my last blog post I mentioned that I was starting to run again. And run I have. After about eight weeks of training I recently ran a 5k and logged what I feel, for me, was a very good pace. I finished the race at just over 33 minutes, logging a fairly consistent 10:33/mile pace.At about six weeks into my training I discovered a new piece of information that has radically changed my approach – I don’t breathe too good. I’m a mouth breather and according to Patrick McKoewn, author of The Oxygen Advantage that can lead to a whole… Read More »