Fear and Love

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” – Frank Herbert, DuneI first read Dune when I was 13 years old. It was about a year after my parent’s divorce and I was very afraid. My whole life had been turned upside down. My parent’s marriage, the… Read More »

Child of Divorce

My parents divorced when I was 12. In 1983 that was becoming an increasingly common experience, but that didn’t make it any less devastating for me. All order in my life was disrupted. Schedules changed. New people came in and out. Heroes became villains.My mom left my dad for another woman. She had never been happy in her marriage with my father. They had only married because she was pregnant with me and she spent eleven long years trying to make a mistake work. Finally she’d had enough. Becky came into her life and offered her her something my father… Read More »

Memorial Day

Hey there.How was your week? Did you enjoy your Memorial Day Weekend? Did it even register as a holiday? I have to admit that with this new lifestyle workdays and weekends and holidays all kind of blend in together in this slurry of work and non-work.My oldest daughter, Madeline, came home for the weekend with her husband, Leonard, and two dogs, the grand-puppies. I really enjoy having the kids home. It makes me nostalgic for when they were younger, but I really enjoy seeing what adults they have become. That comes with its own form of anxiety as now more… Read More »

Log Cabins and the Revival of a Podcast

Hey there,Another week successfully navigated. I’m moving forward on my projects. I’m excited about the future and even enthusiastic about the work. Although, I will admit to a certain dread over sitting here at the laptop for hours editing the video I’ve already shot. It’s not the editing itself that is so daunting as the extended time spent staring at my own image and the self judgment that ensues. I’ve chosen to view this as an exercise in getting over myself.When I look at the issue squarely, it comes down to this. I actually have a pretty high opinion of… Read More »